男人背后的女人

原来要做一个男人背后的女人是一件不容易的事情。凡事都要学会体谅，学着该怎么去容忍。。。尤其是身边那个男人是个不细心的人 >< 凡事都要默默的忍受 。。。有时我会在想，要找一个真心疼爱自己的男人真的那么难吗？其实深入的想想，要找一个真心疼爱自己的人并不难。。。可是要找一个细心又疼爱自己的人才难呢~或许在这世上真的没有十全十美的一个人吧。。。所以我告诉自己做人还是不要那么贪心，只要他是疼我的就够了。。。每一次我看见或是听见别人在说着他们的幸福故事我心里都会觉得十分的羡慕。。。真的希望有一天童话故事会出现在我的生命里 。。。我相信每个女生都希望童话故事会出现在她们的生命里吧。。。女生都是向往浪漫的，都希望会有王子的出现吧。。现在的我在学着怎么才能做好在一个男人背后默默忍受的女人。。。我知道我一定能办到 ^^ 他虽然没有十全十美，可是他应该也算得上有八分吧 。。。希望有一天他真的能感受到我在为他改变的一切吧 。。。

得不到的才是最好的

从小到大我想要得到的东西都是得不到的。。。
记得以前小时候，看见隔壁家的小孩有的玩具，自己很喜欢很想拥有。。。或许因为是单身家庭，所以最后都没告诉妈妈说我想要。。。
到了中学，看见一双很漂亮的鞋子，很想买下，可是因为零用钱不够，所以也煲汤了 。。。
今天我看见一只很可爱的沙皮狗，我真的是超喜欢，可是最后都没买下，因为没地方可以养 ><
刚才把自己锁在房间哭了一场，心里想着那只狗。。。
哭了一场，现在心里舒服很多了 ^^
或许的不到的，就会越想得到，得不到的才是最好的吧 。。。

A Brand New Year ♥♥

Will be a new beginning ^^ 2010 ♥♥ it seem like life goes so fast just like blinking your eyes. isn't it? I told myself that i have to life better than last year ^^ Time is precious,time won't wait for you ~ just depends how you spend your precious time. So, don't waste time for unnecessary stuffs. Do something meaningful with your life. I hope a brand new year would bring more and more laughter and happiest to me~ Hope everything goes smooth as well.Thanks my friends who always be there for me and support me when i facing tone of problem,especially my lovely dear. A sincere thanks for u all♥ I believe time will prove everything,how many effort u put on it and how much u will get.I have 3 wish in this year XD hopefully some1 will help me achieve it ... haha ><


♥ me v dear ♥




♥ nothing much i want from you , just show me your's love ♥

i'm glad that im found him ~
feel warm and sweet everytime when he's beside me ^^
nothing is much better than a hug from him ~
he really bring me alot sweet moment ... ♥THX DEAR♥
i know that nothing last forever, but i really hope that our relationship will be long lasting ~

i used to whispering with him although only two of us inside the room.
i used to hanging out with him on everytime when i feel bored.
i used to stick with him although we staying together.
i used to act like a fool and makes him laughed.
i used to against him like a baby.
i used to sms with him everyday when i reach office.
i used to take care of him although i don't even know how to take care of myself.
i used to miss him although he's just right beside me.

Omg ~since from when i love him so deep ...
i think i should pull hand break XD
some1 told me that cant let your bf knw u love him so deep ... (don let them feel proud) haha ~
seriously,i feel extremely lucky to have him, extremely grateful that he's still accompany beside me now ^^

I love this guy from the bottom of my heart, i am always proud that i've him as my boyfriend~ He's just an ordinary person, but he truly melts my heart~ He is the one who completes me,he taught me to be a stronger girl~ With him,i learn to tolerate,learn to accept facts which i don't hope to accept, i learn to be a better girlfriend ... sometime we will have some argue,and i feel my heart breaks whenever we argue just because everytime when we quarrel,he just keep quiet won't do anything or say some sweet word to me.Let me feel that i'm alone,so pity >< But some1 told me that "the couple that fights the most is the one most in love, it shows they care enough to notice what the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When they stop arguing it means they stopped caring .. " Is it rite??I know our argue won't spoil our relations,sometime it may improve our relation ^^ right baby?? no one is perfect in this world,we have to learn how to life with others ...I know my life not only revolves around him,i still got alot sister beside me ^^



♥ his hand cover down my hand >< ♥





♥dear,no matter how .. we cant dump each others alone k?
if problem appear between us ... we need to face it
don always just keep silent n keep inside ..
cant and dont ever speak out "break" so easily ~
Deal ? ♥

♥u promise me before u won leave me alone,rite?♥

I Should Stop SMOKING

I wanna stop smoking!!!
this word i said few x time d !@#$%^&*
but at the last???i still cant made it ...
y har??i lost control o i totally dunno how to control myself??
this time i really have to stop it jo,cz everytime when i finish smoking i feel tat hard to breath n dizzy @@
i think my lung scorch d lo,gonna die soon ...
don dare to body check up...
dear,i really hope i can made it this time~
cz im waitin my taiwan trip lo ...haha...blek =P
u promise me d lo,so u must proved it ...
la~la~

dear,im sorry bout this few day keep angry to u ><
seriously,lately gt alot stuff mess around me~
especially my career,always kena scold gao gao ....shit...
did u feel tat we keep argue recently??
y har??
i really dunno,thinking that is my fault or your?
what will happen next?
seriously,i'm kinda disappointed on u...
maybe you dunno what i want,dunno actually what i care for it~I think u will just keep feel that why i always showing my temper to u..y always also your fault?
am i right? haha XD
every time after argument,i will try to stand at your angle and think for you..
i knw sometime is my fault,i should nt always shout on u...
sorry to be always fierce on you ...nt i like to do tat,just i don hope i will lost u,know ma???un ma??

Lately i always imaging how if i live without u?hw do i will become if i really break up v u?I started to feel like no more confidence on myself ...So pls prove it if you do really luv me,change it if you really care about me~dun dump me alone,dun leave me,hold me close n stay with me~k??I need you always and i so clear about this .....


I'm not greedy
I jz wan u stay beside me when i need you badly
I jz wan u to show ur care to me
I jz wan u to think for me
I jz wan u to hug me tightly
I jz dun hope u will lie to me
Is that much?Will that hard to make it?



dear,i d used to have u stay beside me,im getting luv u more n more,i dunno hw to describe my feeling,i think u should knw,im serious care bout u...

Thx my lovely dear

Today i feel damn sleepy ~.~ after finish my appointment back office,feel wanna sleep inside
office already lol .... suddenly my phone ringing,a guy ask me where's my office,then i straight answer him without ask who is him....omg..i really blur till @@ after half and hour,the guy call me again >< this time i clever jo,i ask who's him...hehe...his answer let me feel surprise ... he said he's send flower for me 1 ~ the 1st ppl come out my mind is MAK KAR HOO !!!! must is this guy ..... after that,my boss ask me go inside her room,then kena scold gao gao...wtf...bla bla bla !@#$%^&* she said tomorrow show on already,y still got alot prob??? my fault again @@ after kena scold feel damn moody,bt happily i received the flower on that time ... thx alot my dear... dear,u let me feel vy sweet lo~this is the 1st time i received flower inside office..i love u...muacks =P

Finally

finally i put him down....
around 2 year relation...
i really din think b4 i wil break v him...
last time i really thought our love wil last til forever ...
act when the time we together,we always argue....
sometime my fault,sometime he make me angry ><
bt everytime we wil gt well soon....
bt tis time,he leave me far far away...
leave me alone at here,i stil remember tat he promise me b4 he won leave me alone...
bt at the last...haiz ....
i used few month to 4get him,every weekend went out v fren,gt drunk ...
just don hope his shadow wil come out on my mind....
tis time i din cry....the 1st time i break v him i din cry ...
mayb i really tired,fed up d...
jz let him go ba .... let him find wat he really wan ....
nw~i gt my kh...
i jz hop can be happy v him...
others things,jz let it be natural ba ......
ice don hope gt hurt anymore~
nw ice is strong,won let any1 hurt me again...
so all my fen,don worry ya ... haha
i knw i stil gt alot fren around me,i stil gt my family n my lovely kh ....

In Love With You

23-11-2009 our 1st day ^^

Kar Hoo & Elaine

3verything you do, I have felt~ I really feel very touched by everything that you do for me~thanks you a lot my dear~I have never meet a guy like you before,you let me feel you are silly and cute. You know what? That morning I woke up and opened my eyes,the 1st thing i do is thinking of you...i feel that really crazy already lo..seriously,i din't think before i will together with you.i think u also know what im thinking,right??Before that,inside my heart just got 'him',he's my everythings.But start from now,everythings are change...Mak Kar Hoo,i got somehtings wanna tell you now..listen up..start from today,you are my everythings...you cannot bully me,cannot scold me,cannot say no,cannot 'bla bla bla'.....(still got a lot cannot,will let you know soon)..haha..remember,u must sayang me,must listen to me....un?? blek ...at the last,got something inside my heart that i wanna tell u ... dear,i love you.