I Should Stop SMOKING

I wanna stop smoking!!!
this word i said few x time d !@#$%^&*
but at the last???i still cant made it ...
y har??i lost control o i totally dunno how to control myself??
this time i really have to stop it jo,cz everytime when i finish smoking i feel tat hard to breath n dizzy @@
i think my lung scorch d lo,gonna die soon ...
don dare to body check up...
dear,i really hope i can made it this time~
cz im waitin my taiwan trip lo ...haha...blek =P
u promise me d lo,so u must proved it ...
la~la~

dear,im sorry bout this few day keep angry to u ><
seriously,lately gt alot stuff mess around me~
especially my career,always kena scold gao gao ....shit...
did u feel tat we keep argue recently??
y har??
i really dunno,thinking that is my fault or your?
what will happen next?
seriously,i'm kinda disappointed on u...
maybe you dunno what i want,dunno actually what i care for it~I think u will just keep feel that why i always showing my temper to u..y always also your fault?
am i right? haha XD
every time after argument,i will try to stand at your angle and think for you..
i knw sometime is my fault,i should nt always shout on u...
sorry to be always fierce on you ...nt i like to do tat,just i don hope i will lost u,know ma???un ma??

Lately i always imaging how if i live without u?hw do i will become if i really break up v u?I started to feel like no more confidence on myself ...So pls prove it if you do really luv me,change it if you really care about me~dun dump me alone,dun leave me,hold me close n stay with me~k??I need you always and i so clear about this .....


I'm not greedy
I jz wan u stay beside me when i need you badly
I jz wan u to show ur care to me
I jz wan u to think for me
I jz wan u to hug me tightly
I jz dun hope u will lie to me
Is that much?Will that hard to make it?



dear,i d used to have u stay beside me,im getting luv u more n more,i dunno hw to describe my feeling,i think u should knw,im serious care bout u...

Thx my lovely dear

Today i feel damn sleepy ~.~ after finish my appointment back office,feel wanna sleep inside
office already lol .... suddenly my phone ringing,a guy ask me where's my office,then i straight answer him without ask who is him....omg..i really blur till @@ after half and hour,the guy call me again >< this time i clever jo,i ask who's him...hehe...his answer let me feel surprise ... he said he's send flower for me 1 ~ the 1st ppl come out my mind is MAK KAR HOO !!!! must is this guy ..... after that,my boss ask me go inside her room,then kena scold gao gao...wtf...bla bla bla !@#$%^&* she said tomorrow show on already,y still got alot prob??? my fault again @@ after kena scold feel damn moody,bt happily i received the flower on that time ... thx alot my dear... dear,u let me feel vy sweet lo~this is the 1st time i received flower inside office..i love u...muacks =P

Finally

finally i put him down....
around 2 year relation...
i really din think b4 i wil break v him...
last time i really thought our love wil last til forever ...
act when the time we together,we always argue....
sometime my fault,sometime he make me angry ><
bt everytime we wil gt well soon....
bt tis time,he leave me far far away...
leave me alone at here,i stil remember tat he promise me b4 he won leave me alone...
bt at the last...haiz ....
i used few month to 4get him,every weekend went out v fren,gt drunk ...
just don hope his shadow wil come out on my mind....
tis time i din cry....the 1st time i break v him i din cry ...
mayb i really tired,fed up d...
jz let him go ba .... let him find wat he really wan ....
nw~i gt my kh...
i jz hop can be happy v him...
others things,jz let it be natural ba ......
ice don hope gt hurt anymore~
nw ice is strong,won let any1 hurt me again...
so all my fen,don worry ya ... haha
i knw i stil gt alot fren around me,i stil gt my family n my lovely kh ....

In Love With You

23-11-2009 our 1st day ^^

Kar Hoo & Elaine

3verything you do, I have felt~ I really feel very touched by everything that you do for me~thanks you a lot my dear~I have never meet a guy like you before,you let me feel you are silly and cute. You know what? That morning I woke up and opened my eyes,the 1st thing i do is thinking of you...i feel that really crazy already lo..seriously,i din't think before i will together with you.i think u also know what im thinking,right??Before that,inside my heart just got 'him',he's my everythings.But start from now,everythings are change...Mak Kar Hoo,i got somehtings wanna tell you now..listen up..start from today,you are my everythings...you cannot bully me,cannot scold me,cannot say no,cannot 'bla bla bla'.....(still got a lot cannot,will let you know soon)..haha..remember,u must sayang me,must listen to me....un?? blek ...at the last,got something inside my heart that i wanna tell u ... dear,i love you.

终于

经过那么多次的分分离离，我和他终于分开了。
这一次的分开我竟然没有想像中那么伤心，或许已经麻木了吧~
我知道自己的心里还是深爱着他，可是却不想再勉强他跟我一起了。。。
他那种还是爱玩的性格，我真的忍受不了~
对我爱理不理，喜欢喜欢就完失踪~
老板啊，你人已经不在我身边了，为什么还要玩失踪？？
你究竟知道有人在担心你吗？？
两年的感情就这样没了。。。说不伤心是骗人的啦。。。
只不过不会再像以前那样每天晚上都自己躲在角落头哭一整晚咯。。。
分开后，我慢慢喜欢上单身生活。。。
不喜欢被人绑着，不喜欢去那里都要对人交代 ^^
享受自己一个人的生活 ~
可是有时候当然会期望下一段爱情的出现，
希望会找到一个很疼自己的另一半 。。。
这现实的世界会有童话故事的存在吗？？
还是会有偶像剧里的情节吗？？
真的好希望会有这种事情发生在自己的身上噢。。
每一次看到电视荧幕上那种浪漫的情节，
我都会又在发梦了 @@
我相信每一个女孩子都希望可以遇到像偶像剧里的白马王子吧？？
我相信女孩子都喜欢被人疼爱，被人呵护的感觉。。
我的白马王子，你在哪里啦？？？

忘不了的回忆

跟你在一起的时间真的过得特别快，这两天我真的很开心！！那天晚上在port dickson我真的很很很开心，那会是我永远都忘不了的回忆。。。。让你背着的感觉真的很舒服，有你在身边的时候总觉得我是受保护的^^晚间的海边真的好漂亮，海水好暖～其实只要有你陪着我，去哪里我都会很开心～因为我只想有你陪在我身边！抱着你睡的感觉真的很舒服，可以睡到很甜很甜^_^那天早上当你告诉我你的梦，我听到真的很开心很甜哦～就只因为你的梦里有我，你的心里也有我了哦^^虽然我们不是在一起很久，可是却经过了很多～每次当我想起我们的点点滴滴，我都会从心里笑了出来～旁边的人还以为我干嘛傻笑。。。在你身边的时候我总觉得自己像个小孩子，爱撒娇，喜欢被你宠的感觉！！不知不觉中，真的把你当成老公了噢～还记得昨天ghee叫我搬去你那里住，我真的想一口答应呢。。。我真的很想每天早上睡醒就能看到你，偷吻你～哈哈～亲爱的，真的谢谢你带给我那么多的甜甜回忆，我爱你！！！

逃避

其实有些事情没说出口并不代表问题解决了，而是我们都选择了逃避。。。。
可能你真的给不到我想要的将来，可是至少让我看见你曾经为我们的感情努力过好吗？？
最近我真的发现我越来越糟糕了，人在他这里心却在你那里。。。
为什么我能这样过日子？？？
就只因为你从来没有给我答案，所以我根本不知道我应该怎么做。。。。
我该傻傻的等，还是回到他身边？？？？
每天对着一个没有感情的人真的好辛苦～
为什么我还会留在他身边你知道吗？
因为他真的对我很好，因为我觉得他很可怜，因为你从来没有给我答案！！！！！！
现在我想清楚了，我知道我应该怎么做了。。。。
爱我的人不是我想要的人，我爱的人却不能给我将来～
可能我不会是这一辈子陪伴你度过一生的那一个，可是我可以很肯定的告诉你，我会是你这一辈子里对你最好的那一个。。。。。
有没有将来已经不重要了，只要你心里会永远记着我就好了～